Femmotional @Gaynebula@girlcock.club

The post was intended to stick up for my friends, but in attempting to do so I actually threw someone else under the bus, because I didn't have as much info as I thought I did. I'm being as accountable as I can, but I also fear a tendency of mine to turn this into a form of self destructive behaviour. I'm also perpetually aware of how trauma interacts with this process.

I'm struggling to walk the line between openness about my mistakes and self-flagellation.

I posted a callout and it turns out I got a whole bunch of the info wrong. Fortunately I don't have enough reach for it to have done lasting harm (I don't think) but I pissed off a fair few people I really value and I feel like total shit about it.
I don't know how to de-escalate my thoughts spiralling from 'wow, that was stupid, I should think more carefully in future' to 'wow, I'm a piece of useless shit and everyone who cares about me should abandon me.'

So fucking tired of being seen only as an object and not as a human being

So sick of cis people playing fast and loose with my identities

So exhausted by allistic entitlement

So utterly overcome with unquenchable bitterness every time I think about all the moments where... I trusted someone and it just turned out to be... This again.

Like... Oh.

I see.

I guess that's what's happening here after all isn't it.

That's a shame.

So anyway I hate both cis people and allistics who can rELATE

And a couple more for good measure~

Some more~

Feeling myself today 😋

Our rage is powerful and well-positioned to fight this. So many of us know so much is deeply wrong. When much society tells us to ignore these feelings, they only grow stronger.

TERFs are being forced out into the open, fought and exposed at every turn, and they do not like it.

It's so easy to sink into despair, fuck knows I do it a lot. A line from one of my favourite songs often comes to mind: 'turn anger into hope.'

We can't give up. Not now, not ever.

The alt right pipeline, the overton window cascading us rightward to sow division along insecure privileged lines and reap violence as the reward.

An incalculable death toll which grows and grows, while pride lets cops, corporations and even now TERFs march with no resistance, in fact open arms.

Radical movements being choked out and sidelined, shallow capitalist demagoguery taking the place of solidarity in many circles. This is what enables this process.

Decades of stagnation in liberal reformist quagmires, actively fomented by the white middle classes who value personal comfort over society-wide change for those who need it most, has lead to this.

Trans people existing is homophobic. 'It's not about race.' Disabled people are lazy.

Doublespeak, euphemism, betrayal, violently cracking open resistance so we may be crushed by the same social structures which have always devastated us.

The existence of prominent orgs who supposedly advocate for all of us, yet whose founders are openly 'gender critical,' marks the wilful and blatant betrayal, by white cis gays, of the rest of us.

In the name of homonationalism, cis supremacy and the preservation of capital, they try to push queer people of colour, trans people, poor queer people, disabled queer people and countless other minorities-within-minorities out of our own movements, while co-opting our language and symbols.

I've had ENOUGH of this constant state of fear, paranoia, of systematic NHS discrimination, being afraid for my LIFE. It's terrorising us, and cis people are just LETTING IT HAPPEN. I swear to fucking god it's one in a million who will even tepidly stand up for us, and it sure as FUCK isn't those in power.