Femmotional @Gaynebula@girlcock.club

One of my fav youtubers is recounting in bafflement his experience with an awful film that also happens to target me personally. The catharsis is exactly the right type for me rn, and aside from a mildly ableist language slip up (which I'll forgive since it's an unstructured vlog) it's just him laughing in bewilderment at the ridiculous nature of it all

She makes a hefty sum of money (well into 6 figures by most estimates) off a community of people more disproportionately in crisis than most.

And, on top of all that, she's overtly spreading sentiment+platforming people that will see some of us die. (I've lived this. I lack the optimism to say 'might' or 'could'.)

People like Contrapoints and hundreds before her are fiercely guarded, while actual radicals suffer and die only to face our scorn...

Herein she outlines her own shitty positions better than I ever could, making hateful and overtly truscum remarks before weakly walking them back, in what was supposed to be clarification for her previous truscum dogwhistling:

https://archive.is/pYrpg

Contra is the embodiment of every fucking force within the community that's pushed me to the brink of death.

Her arrogance and callousness were mirrored in most of those who called themselves my mentors. Her glib contempt for marginalised people she doesn't understand is how I very nearly died.

This shit is life or death. This shit is devastating. Her lack of any semblance of humility is as devastating as it is jaw-droppingly unpleasant...

Now that she's explicitly said she thinks non-medical concepts of transness are 'weak,' platforms truscum, and explicitly treats her nonbinary fanbase- as well as trans people without hormones or surgery, intersex trans people, and myriad others- with contempt, while treating accountability as a persecutor and enemy.

Any ambiguity as to her character has left. She is everything she claimed to stand against. If we treat this as acceptable, we've already lost.

Stop teaching people that killing their bodies is healthy. That grinning and bearing pain is how it should be, that pain is just normal and a part of life.

It is not. Not this sort of pain. Not debilitating pain, not mindfuck and brain fog pain.

If a single person had listened to me I could've had a few years extra life.

Please, for fucks sake. Don't let this paradigm survive any longer.

No more of this fucking absurdity, please.

No more forcing kids into PE lessons.
No more health shaming, scaremongering, lifestylist bullshit.
No more assigned gender at birth. No more assumption of able bodiedness and neuronormativity.

No more mocking people for struggling. No more contempt, disregard and suspicion for our stated limits. No more forcing us to pretend, to grin and bear it.

No more of this cold blooded, tough love, be-cruel-to-be-kind murder.

The gp I spent 6 months arguing with over this last year.

The gp in NZ who utterly ignored my complaints.

The psychiatrist who prescribed lithium and SSRIs despite them having no consistent efficacy for my needs.

The years of 'suck it up' and 'you need more exercise' that have defined and destroyed chunks of my hyper-masculinised childhood.

How did I finally get the pills? One nurse, one week. A few months of exams.

This. Is. How. Easy. It. COULD. HAVE. BEEN.

Gabapentin is the revelation I was told SSRIs would be.

Actually having some nervous 'room' for my subconscious to maneuver is letting it process and soothe trauma.

I was prescribed SSRIs hastily and with disregard for the side effects I kept reporting. SSRIs were supposed to start some kinda internal processes like this, but didn't.

Because you don't give someone w/chronic pain and BPD LITHIUM and then a truckload of SSRIS. Thank you NZ.

*lowers paper*

Me: What's that, dear?

Wife: Oh, it's just Mastodon having an existential crisis again.

Me: Ah. Some things never change...

*raises newspaper again*

Hey Vsauce! Michael here.

But what *is* Big Mood Energy?